http://leapingbeforelooking.blogsome.com Just another WordPress weblog Thu, 20 Jul 2006 21:08:41 +0000 http://backend.userland.com/rss092 en I feel like I need to dig to the depths of my self-hatred before I can find my way back up on my own two feet, to a place where I can begin to feel joy again. That I need to flush out all this negativity, loathing and sadness ... http://leapingbeforelooking.blogsome.com/2006/07/20/digging-into-the-raw-parts/ Recently, I jotted down a random thought that came to mind while I was sitting in my cubicle, bemoaning another day at a job I have no passion for. I wrote the following: “I want to be an active participant in my own life” At first, that statement seemed to ... http://leapingbeforelooking.blogsome.com/2006/07/18/a-passive-life-no-more/ I feel utterly lost. Hopeless, adrift. Like the anchor that was bruied deep below the water in the sand is now dragging along the ocean floor. I’ve lost my bearings and my head seems all shook up like a snowglobe. Concentration seems impossible, as if my ... http://leapingbeforelooking.blogsome.com/2006/06/21/adrift/ Ugh- it’s Friday and I have post nasal drip-enduced nausea and I’m just a little bit more than surly due to The Rock and Johnny Depp wasting three plus hours of my life last night. Granted, I should have known better with The Rock and “Walking Tall” (Johnny Knoxville should have ... http://leapingbeforelooking.blogsome.com/2006/01/20/friday-fung/ “Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don’t matter, and those who matter don’t mind.” -Dr. Seuss http://leapingbeforelooking.blogsome.com/2006/01/13/what-a-wonderful-quote-a-quote-he-wrote/ Our upstairs neighbors have this annoying habit of leaving the laundry in the dryer for hours, even days, thus forcing me to pull their clothes and, because I’m a nice person (or to make up for the nasty things I say about them behind their backs), I usually fold their ... http://leapingbeforelooking.blogsome.com/2006/01/12/fat-pants/ Whatever I tried, I could never make you smile. I could never make you happy. Whether it was bus rides to a farm or school, your very own car to drive around in Little People town, or friends I found for you who were always happy to play with you, ... http://leapingbeforelooking.blogsome.com/2005/11/14/making-him-happy/ What is worth more than your word? How does someone evolve to a point where honesty becomes the exception, not the rule? Is it a process that starts with gradual “fibs”, to lying here and there to cover your tracks, to flat out fabricating a whole life consisting of untruths ... http://leapingbeforelooking.blogsome.com/2005/11/04/honesty-is-such-a-lonely-word/ Granted, I’ve said this many times before and have always thought I’d follow through with it, but this time, I mean it. I’m done with drinking. It wasn’t a killer hangover or a stupid drunken episode which caused me to re-evaluate my life and the role alcohol plays in it. ... http://leapingbeforelooking.blogsome.com/2005/11/03/going-dry/ My favorite of days, Halloween, brings back thoughts of years gone by… -Colorful autumn leaves crackling underfoot -Crisp wind whipping the trees -Bright full moons and hazy, grey clouds -Construction paper cutouts of bats, witches and pumpkins (always folded before cut in half for symmetry!) -Pillow sacks we’d thought we’d always fill to the brim -Running ... http://leapingbeforelooking.blogsome.com/2005/10/31/october-31/